The other night I attended my first spin class in almost 6 months. It’s hard to believe I used to go to spin 3-4 times a week for over a year. While my unaccustomed backside cried out in discomfort from the saddle, and my legs screamed in pain from 6 minutes of straight sprints, I realized something..something monumental. In that moment I felt complete.
This is a bike. Not my bike, and not my spin bike..but a bike..I rode this bike one time.
I’ve never been one to enjoy talking about deep emotions, I struggle with being vulnerable and in all honesty I hate putting my “problems” onto other people. I know what it’s like to listen to others go on and on about things they cannot change, so despite some of my internal battles, I don’t like to share them. It’s been hard for me to admit that although it’s been nearly 6 months I am still not fully recovered from my breakup. I still have moments of complete weakness where I breakdown at the drop of a hat. That’s really hard to admit.
If you’re worried about falling off the bike, you’ll never get on.
It’s hard for me to admit that at times I still feel like I am lost, and that my direction continues to go up, then down, and then back, and then up again. It all feels complicated.
I’ve had wonderful adventures lately, and I really am finding my happiness, but I still feel as if some days are a bit of a black clouded blur. This spin class opened my eyes to what I need in my life. I need a routine. My work schedule isn’t consistent, and I can’t say I like the inconsistency, but it’s something I have to accept with this job. This spin class reminded me of the days when I had a strict, yet wonderful routine.
There is no guidebook to tell me when I am supposed to feel complete, and I’ve realized the “self work” I have to do takes TIME. Finding a consistent schedule is going to be one of the keys I need for my happiness. That spin class was a small victory for me on my road to success. I now see that I don’t need to be a medical professional to be happy, I just need a consistent schedule that makes me feel like I’ve accomplished my day. I love ending my day feeling exhausted.
I have learned so much about myself in the last 6 months it’s almost crazy to look back and see where my life was a year ago. All this time I was longing for the past and struggling with my present, without realizing some of the simple things that would help me move forward. The saying, “live and learn” really means more than I thought. One day I will return to school and pursue a career, but for now I hope to find my balance in routine.
Q: How do you feel about sharing/reading more “emotional” posts? I struggle with them and I don’t feel like the world needs to know everything, but sometimes sharing can be cathartic. I also enjoy reading more personal posts when I can relate to them.
Blissfulbritt 
66 thoughts on “Small Victories”
kcriemer
Most of my posts are more ’emotional’ and deeper than the usual eats/workouts/etc. I’ve been struggling since I graduated college as you know, and a lot of the things are career-related. With the busy schedule I do have it can be icnredibly hard to sit down and write a daily post so when I do I make sure they’re what I need to ‘talk out’.
I’m happy you had this moment of revelation. Always know you can chat with me gorgeous! ❤
Brittany
I think great things are coming your way! I’ve been very calm lately with the unknown knowledge of my future. It’s been nice!
Nicole @ FruitnFitness
Oh I’m sorry your still having a hard time, but I understand. I really like to have a routine, but I’m learning to try to go with the flow more. Sometimes I get stressed when I don’t have a constant schedule. I hope your able to find a schedule that works for you! Glad you enjoyed your spin session!
kathy @ vodka and soda
i love that you’re trying something new and be more open on here. you do what you need to do to cathart; in my personal opinion, you have every right to do that using which ever vehicle that allows it best — this is your site and we are always here for you!
i’m pretty much an open book on my blog (as every can tell by my crazy posts) so i have no problem sharing emotional things about me. i love it when other bloggers do the same; aside from our online personalities and how we want to convey that through out blog, there’s also a vulnerable side to us that not everyone knows about; certainly something that can be tough to share. but i’m glad you did; i’m glad that you’re starting to figure out what’s working for you and what you need to find happiness because you really deserve it!
wow, that’s pretty deep for a sardonic asshole like me. but for you, anything! hugs! xoxoxox (and #BBM2014!!!! you know what i’m talking about)
Brittany
I think you have a super mushy gooey inside despite your bad bitch shell, which is exactly why I love you. BAHAHA! Thank you my friend, and HELL YES #BBM2014!
sincerelylily
Sharing is a life-saver at times. Love how open, honest, and sincere this post is… and I think that is downrigth amazing that you had a ‘complete’ moment! YAY! I will celebrate you by thinking about you and smiling the rest of the day b/c of this moment you had. Awesome, Brittany. Just flat out plain awesome.
You are brave to get back on the spin bike! Sounds… hard on the butt. And like it kicks your butt! you go!
I think opening up and sharing emotions is totally like therapy or a long run… sometimes you just need to let it out and have someone listen. Or no one listen, just letting out the words and thoughts is enough.
I love that you are getting stronger and stronger each day. Celebrate each step! xoxo love you!
Brittany
I just adore spinning, it really makes me feel like a boss. It’s another form of therapy for me because it just exhausts me to pieces!! Thank you for your comment, I just love your words!
Kristina at damntenpounds
If you are even half as positive and optimistic as you come off on your blog, I have no doubt that you will bounce back 10 fold when the time is right. I think part of going through struggles is to teach us patience and perseverance. There’s nothing wrong with still getting emotional 6 months later. There’s no defined timeline of how long you’re allowed to grieve a big change. Your spirits will be lifted when you’re ready and when they do, there will be no looking back. I went through a soul crushing break up years ago and thought I would never get over it. It took awhile (longer than I want to admit), but one day that burden was gone. Just like that. A huge weight lifted off my shoulders. You’ll get there. I promise.
I think you’re a rockstar for keepin’ it real. Thanks for sharing. xo
Brittany
I couldn’t agree with you more about learning patience and perseverance. Patience is definitely something I have needed a lot of work on when it comes to my emotions. I am already SO much more patient and accepting of the unknown than I was 6 months ago, it’s really amazing. Your comment is also amazing, and it brought a smile to my face. Thank you so much.
Choc Chip Uru
You can get emotional at any time my friend, it is natural but you are such a positive and wonderful person, I hope it does not get you down too much!
I am glad you went back to your spin class, it must have felt good to go back somewhat to your routine 🙂 – though just let yourself go, and see where life takes you! You are slowly getting up again, don’t worry if you feel down sometimes, we are here for you!
Cheers
CCU
Brittany
Thank you so very much, I really try to be as positive as I can! 🙂
Corrie Anne
Hang in there, girl. I think it sometimes really helps to share for some reason. Thinking of you 🙂
Amy
Brittany, you are really strong to open up and share your thoughts and emotions. It’s only through falling down into that black hole, hitting rock bottom with a thud, and opening up to our own vulnerability that we begin to learn about ourselves, heal, and start living genuinely from our hearts and souls. Although it may feel like baby steps sometimes (a few forward, many more backward), these are actually momentous leaps that you’re taking towards becoming yourself and learning what you need to feel whole.
I am incredibly proud of you for getting back on the bicycle and writing this tough post, and I’m looking forward to more of these in the future!
P
I haven’t been on a bike in years…it’s pretty sad because a bike riding is so much fun. There’s something about it that makes you feel like you are flying 🙂
Change of Pace
I’m glad you’re feeling better. It’s a process that always takes time. Just when you think you’ve moved forward, you can get knocked back a few steps again. But, setting a schedule, going on adventures, writing about it, doing whatever helps is helping move you forward again. Do what makes you happy, whether it’s a cycling class or spilling a little emotion onto these pages!
I’m proud of you for being able to say it, and in a public forum.
I have Ghandi’s Top 10 Fundamentals printed out and hanging at my desk. My favourite fundamental has a bike beside it and says, “without action you aren’t going anywhere”.
So get on that bike, write about it, and keep feeling happier!!
Davida @The Healthy Maven
Our posts today could not be more opposite, but I love reading your perspective. So yes to more emotional posts. I’ve struggled for years with letting go of the plan. I get so wrapped up in my routine that any deviation makes me snap. It isn’t pretty and as you said “you live and learn”. So I’m learning to let go of the reigns and enjoy the life I have right in front of me, instead of planning for some intangible life I seemed to be striving for in the past.
Brittany
I wouldn’t say I loose my shit or anything when I don’t have a plan, and I am all for spontaneity these days (whoa there random day road trip last week!) but I can definitely relate to you and getting too wrapped up in routines and not wanting to deviate. I think I have been away from a routine for so long now, I just really crave one!
I’m proud of you for letting go and just enjoying life!! Whatever that may look like for YOU and only you…life is too short to not enjoy the days we have!
An Unrefined Vegan
xoxo Sometimes you gotta let it out. Maybe we can’t help, but we’ll try ;-). Just writing it down and sharing is sometimes a big part of what you need to move on to the next step.
Lisa
Thinking of you right now my friend! Keep your chin up, and if you ever need someone to listen, I’m just an e-mail away.
It sounds like you’ve learned so much from your past experiences and that you are starting to realize some things, which is such a big step!
PNWRunner
I’ve tried to stay as real as possible when sharing thoughts about what is really going on in my life. I completely understand that it takes alot of time to truly move on. I’ve definitely been there before. However, I have learned so much about myself from it. I learned that I can be happy without relying on another person. Plus, I get to spend more time with my family and I love that. You are an awesome girl and you deserve the best! 🙂 Side note….spinning is the best. Flywheel is my favorite!
Brittany
You said it perfectly when you said you learned to be happy without relying on another person. That is one of the biggest things I had to work on and was clearly necessary for me in this stage of my life!! It’s totally possible and allows me to know I don’t have to put up with shit I don’t need in my life! WHOOP WHOOP!
I totally wish I could come spin at Flywheel with you!
allieksmith
As you know, I am all about emotional posts from time to time! I post them when I’m truly just going through a rough time, or if I’ve learned something. The feedback can be amazing!
I am sorry about your breakup, though. I know it’s got to be tough.. and just trying to figure things out. I think you’re doing a great job, though. You looked so happy when you danced with those hippies 🙂
Taryn
I missed your post back in July, so I just read it now. As hard as I’m sure that was to write, it was kind of beautiful. Even with how difficult things were for you, you wrote about it in a way that, I don’t know, it wasn’t depressing or anything. If you enjoy writing more personal posts, I will always enjoy reading them. Just don’t ever force yourself to write something you’re not comfortable with.
I’m so happy for you though.. sometimes I think figuring out what makes you feel full/complete/whatever word you use you to describe it is more important than actually feeling that way. When you figure out what makes you happy, you just feel more YOU. That’s how it is for me anyway.. I feel more complete when I can say “THIS makes me happy.”
Brittany
This is my favorite comment on this post. When I wrote that post back in July I never wanted it to come off as a pity party, I just wanted to write and splurge my emotions on internet paper. I was so glad to hear that my voice was perceived as positive rather than negative because that’s exactly what I wanted. Thank you so much for what you said, it really made me smile .
Sarah @ Feeeding the Brain and Body
I’m really glad you wrote this post. I too also struggle with being vulnerable and sharing my emotions, so I understand how hard it must have been to write. This was a great reminder of how important it is to figure ourselves out and feel comfortable without a significant other.
Alisha's Appetite
I personally am so glad when you write them. It shows that we bloggers are human and yes, we all go through rough patches. I just posted about mine the other day and believe me when I say, I hear you on everything you are saying. I also really dislike writing about it because I feel like all I’m doing is complaining and looking for a pity party- but I’m not…I’m really just trying to talk about what I’m going through at the moment and why I may seem a little off ya konw. So of course it’s so refreshing to know that there are others who feel the same way.
I am also in the search for happiness and searching for the work that I truly want to do with my life, you aren’t alone darling Hang in there and I think that if spin class makes you happy and feel complete then damnit, KEEP DOING IT!!! Hugs!! And PS at least you can start saving your pounds of coffee in a closet stash for when you’re ready to go back to school! 🙂
Brittany
YES, this is exactly what I worry about. I never want my posts to be perceived as negative or that I am seeking sympathy because I am SO not! I just feel the need to express my feelings onto the internet paper once in a while! Thank you for what you wrote, and RIGHT BACK AT YOU! We’re in this together! 😉
ahellams
I think sharing these things call help you get the support you need. Sometimes the most valuable and meaningful encouragement can come from a stranger!
Just to give you a smile and sticking with the bike riding theme…http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FYuSvPWxaZw
I was just trying to find the bike riding part but after a half hour of searching this is the best I could find!
Brittany
OH my goodness, I don’t watch that show, but I adore Sofia Vergara. Not only is she a total babe, but she is soo funny. That bike clip was great.
aliceinwonder88
love love love this post! and i totally relate…i’ve gone through two (definitely more minor) breakups in this past year, and it’s so weird to look back and see how much i’ve grown and changes. AND i just opened a draft about the routine i’ve found that makes me happy, and how important it is to my emotional health. great minds huh?
apartmentwife
oh brit, this was such an honest and heartfelt post, and i wish i could crawl through the screen and give you a hug (or at least ride around on a bike with you for a bit). it seems like you’re really getting to a good place, and i’m hoping that even better things are waiting just around the corner 🙂
GiGi Eats Celebrities
I WON’T do it, you know I won’t do it. Everything is HAPPY GO LUCKY in my life… Or SOOOO IT SEEMS on my blog 😉 That being said, I give you a lot of BULLS BALLS for laying it out there! Clearly you have a ton of support, and YOU KNOW YOU KNOW I am always here for you – Via Text, Blog, Skype, Snap Chat… And at some point IN PERSON! 😀
jessielovestorun
It breaks my heart to hear you’re still hurting from the breakup – I so wish I could be there to listen to you scream, cry and just continue to vent out all your emotions. Life can be a bitch, but hunnie you’re doing a fabulous job taking control of your life. You may not see the reasoning for why situations happen, but in the end – it’ll all come together. Please never forget that you’re a beautiful-strong-brilliant-funny woman.
Brittany
I just adore you Jessie! Thank you, you are so sweet!! I still know this is where I am supposed to be and that definitely helps!! Staying positive too!! 🙂
Arman @ thebigmansworld
Sorry to hear your having a rough patch. Ironically, whenever I feel as such, blogging about it and being open is somewhat therapeutic- even emailing another blogger has been so helpful for me!
PS So many bloggers spinning recently, once exams are done I’m taking a class!
Brittany
PLEASE GO TO A SPIN class, they are soo amazing. I just love them.
Elizabeth
holy sh*t, I have been sitting here reading and re-reading your post for almost an hour. this is so, so, so relatable. please, please, please don’t forget that you are one badass rockstar woman taking this world- your world- by storm.
time is a two edged sword. it’s the only pathway to healing and health, but it’s a looooooong pathway that takes forever to get down.
i fell off my bike and now i’m scared to get back on. but that bike is the only vehicle i have for the future. i will ride again
xoxo Brittany
Elizabeth
looks like i signed my comment with your name……haha, I’m lame. it’s supposed to send you xoxo!! 🙂
Brittany
Silly girl!! You can sign as Brittany anytime! HA! AHH I hope things are ok in your world, and DO NOT FEAR the bike!! Get back on and pedal faster than ever before!! ❤
Barbara Bamber | justasmidgen
I agree with everything you’ve written Brittany. And I don’t believe we talk enough about our emotions.. so many of us feel that they should just get over things so quickly, but life and our hearts are more complicated than that. One thing I think I know.. you’re capable of a lasting love, so when you meet the right one it will be a forever kind of love! xx
brickhousechick
I hope you do feel better after sharing your feelings and experiences. I went back and read “my breakup”, since I was not following you at that time. It definitely has been a rough time for you and I am sorry that you are struggling.
I have found that we all (bloggers) are truly a family and one that we can all count on to hear the good and the not so good! We are all human and we all share these feelings. Nothing wrong with that. Just know that your readers care very much about you! 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 Keep riding!
Alex @ Cookie Dough Katzen
I really admire those who write emotional shares- it really is cathartic for the writer. Also, you never know who might be reading and relating with you. If it means you help one person, that’s worth every difficult moment putting the post together.
spectacuLAUR
I find it hard to really express what I’m feeling and write it down in a way it makes sense to others. I have a hard time just putting my emotions into correct words. I feel half of the time I try to express myself, people don’t fully understand because I’m unable to communicate it. It’s hard for me!
I’m proud you’re taking steps for yourself since the break up. I know it has to be tough for you, but there will ALWAYS be bad days. Hell, I have bad days in recovery ALL the time but the important part is picking yourself up from them. Each time you pick yourself back up, you’re not letting the bad times control you.
katalysthealth
Girl, you are awesome. 1st let me just say that it took me well over a year to get over my break-up. My mom literally almost had me admitted to some place because I was so depressed and just straight out of it, so seriously, this is normal. It just shows you are a vulnerable human being, and there is NOTHING wrong with that. 2nd, I’m all about emotional posts!! I say if it helps you to write them, then hit us with those bad boys. Don’t ever be afraid to share your feelings with the blog world lovie, that’s why we are here :):)
Brittany
Oh my love, I am so happy you have found Ninja and things are SO much better for you. It’s comments like this that show me things do get better (deep down I know this!) I am staying positive and letting things work themselves out organically! Thank you!
Allison @ Life's a Bowl
This is EXACTLY what I needed to hear/read today. I too am struggling with the lack of routine. I don’t need to figure it all out right now, but I need to establish a routine and get myself used to it… Otherwise I can continue to sit here, feel overwhelmed, and get anxious about my future plans.
Christina Does It All
“I’ve never been one to enjoy talking about deep emotions, I struggle with being vulnerable and in all honesty I hate putting my “problems” onto other people” I can definitely relate to this….I sometimes struggle with being vulnerable even with close friends. Anyway, this is a wonderful blog post and you are a wonderful person and I adore you! Just so you know. 🙂
Meghan@CleanEatsFastFeets
Wow, talk about coincidences. I went to my first spin class in months today, and it felt AH-MAZING. Like I didn’t even know anything was wrong until I’d gone and felt so unbelievable good after. Spinning helps my soul. Or maybe that’s just the cardio junkie in me.
I like reading personal posts from you and I’ve often wondered how you were doing post break up. Keep your head up, and just let time work its course. There’s no perfect answer for when you’ll suddenly be past it, but just know it will happen, and in the meantime take care of yourself. You’re worth it.
Oh and I’m always here if you ever need an ear or a shoulder. Max is a pretty good listener too. He never talks back.
Brittany
YESS, seriously the spin bike is like my freaking therapist right now hahaha. Thank you my friend, you and Max can always make me smile!
Melissa @ Al Forno Mementos
is it weird I have a short words only post about this scheduled for tomorrow? I too feel like I lost a part of myself and trying to find it again. I rarely do emotional posts just because I don’t like people feeling sorry for me and seeing me weak. I guess if you get a chance to read tomorrow’s post, you’ll see what I have to say. but you’re amazing and know that we’re always here for you even though this is something you’ll have to go through yourself.
Luv What You Do
I have such a hard time writing emotional parts and sharing my feelings. But I push through the discomfort because I am learning that if nobody reads my post, I feel better and more complete writing it. A great example of this was when we put our cat to sleep. I really wanted to share my feelings but it scared me like crazy! I do enjoy reading other’s posts because as cliche as it sounds, it reminds me that I’m not alone and I am always so proud and impressed with the author.
As for spinning…isn’t it crazy how we go through phases. I miss spin too and wish I had a strong teacher in my ‘hood! Hang in there girl!
The Vegan 8
I absolutely love the bike Brittany. It’s my favorite exercise to do outside or inside piece of equipment. I used to do bike trails a couple of hours a day and I just loved it. I’ve never been to a spin class though and really, REALLY want to. Glad you had a good moment that helped you. Funny you mentioned your breakup because I must have missed that post, as I’ve been wondering why no more pics of him. I’m so sorry you’ve had a hard time, I know how that is, but I’m glad you are doing better. You seem like a wonderful strong woman!!! Oh, and share away if that is what you want and it makes you feel better!
Jan @ Sprouts n Squats
I think a mix of both kinds of posts isn’t a bad thing, we are human and it shows and if by showing our vulnerability and struggles it can help other people going through the exact same thing too. I think as well it can also help you just to get it out of your head and down on paper (depending what it is).
So glad this spin class was able to help you to push forward and show you how far you’ve been. I think after any break up there is always that time where you need to just do things for you and almost rediscover yourself again and what you enjoy.
I love some routine but then I can get bored easily so I need a mix of both routine and spontaneity.
missymiller
I did the same thing in my life. Went from WAY scheduled, ordered and routined to the point of overboard (think Rain Man) and then went TOO loosey goosey. I am so all or nothing. I learned I need balance. I don’t know if your “strict” schedule ever stressed you out like mine did, but if you can relate, maybe now that you have had a period of “loosening up,” you may find more of a balance in returning to a schedule. Like… when a friend spontaneous calls and invites you adventuring you won’t hesitate to say YES! even though it is Thursday and “on Thursdays I and I must not deviate from that or when will I get the ironing done? Lol.
I know that is what happened or me.
ANY- regarding emo moments on blogs… I feel like when you get to know and love a blogger you WANT to know what is going on when shiz gets real. Both parties benefit because the reader can be inspired too. The blogger needs to feel like they want to share — writing about it can kind of solidify it in your mind (like what you did here with the bike metaphor) and sort of tie everything together in your mind and heart.
BUT yeah. Those blogs that are just pages and pages of type with no pictures about how they are depressed and blahblahblah… with titles like “My Journey out of Darkness” …NO. I don’t like those blogs at all and don’t read them. But thosSo I gues what I am saying is that as long as you aren’t an unbalanced hot-mess of a head case, I love the emo posts. lol.
PS- Keep swimming. Time takes time. ((hugs))
Brittany
I USED to be similar in the sense that I would NOT want to deviate from plans (usually if it meant messing up my workouts) to hang with friends. NOW I think I have a good balance to know when it’s ok to take a break and spend time with other people! As always, thank you for your encouraging words!!! I’ve missed you around these parts!
Sarah
I am so proud of you for writing this post. Just the fact that you were able to sit down, type up your deeper thoughts and feelings, and post it speaks numbers to your overall strength as a person. You are doing what you need to do for you – which is the most important. Self work takes time, a lot of time, but it’s well worth it all said and done. I’ve always thought of it that the things which take the longest are usually both the most needed and most helpful in your pursuit of life. I am happy for you attending this spin class which brought a new view of what needs to happen into your field of vision. xo
Britta
You are amazing – it’s so challenging to truly let you emotions out, especially on a blog. It feels so good to do it and I’m so glad you did. Blogs are a funny thing because we always “seem” happy and go-lucky on most days, like our world really is only filled with rainbows and butterflies, but we have our own struggles every single day.
I don’t need to tell you that we are the same person – but a routine is sometimes the best remedy for something. Something to be accountable to, something to look forward to and be exhausted by once then end of day rolls around. I know what you mean, and I think thats maybe why we like running so much. It’s a routine. That’s why we like marathon training – it makes us committed and it feels like we’ve accomplished something even though we aren’t working our dream job or are something that we are passionate about.
Time will heal everything and just make sure you GIVE yourself that time. It literally took me 2 years from my last break up and I was always trying to “move on” and “be over him already” – but I wasn’t ready. I wish someone would have told me that it’s ok to take all the time you need and just live through those moments so that you can heal properly and forgive yourself, forgive him, and not re-run all the small situations in your head that you may have done differently. You are a wonderful person and you will find you balance again soon! ❤ LOVE YOU! xoxoxoxox
I wrote a BOOK. soweeeeeeee.
Brittany
As I mentioned in my text..simply beautiful words!
Rach @ This Italian Family
I know sharing is hard and may even feel weird, but it seems like it really helped you to write this out. For me it helps just to put my feelings into words. You know, it’s okay to not be over it. Like you said, it takes time. I’m glad that you’ve discovered a little piece of normalcy and figured out how routine will help. *hugs* I know it isn’t easy, but you’ve come so far in the past six months. Just take all the time you need, Britt.
PJ Sassifras
I don’t share much by way of emotional posts. I have a boozy cupcake blog, it doesn’t really fit. But one of the reasons I love YOUR blog so much is you come across very authentic. Even when things are rough, you’re honest about it. When you have breakthrough moments, it’s inspiring and hopeful. In other words, you’re kinda awesome and I wish more folks were like you! Now get yourself a bike, dammit! Spin is a helluva workout, but it doesn’t compare to getting that same burn on an actual hill.
Brittany
MAN oh MAN you are making me blush. THANK YOU! I try to be authentic with my struggles without taking it too far into the black hole of the twilight zone! HA! Your cupcake blog is perfect just as it is..I WANT ALL THE CUPCAKES! UGH I have been soooo lazy about buying myself a bike GAH! I NEED ONE!
kelly @ racesrepsramblings
Aww girl. First of all, know that I’m sending some super huge positive vibes your way. Breakups suck. There are no two ways around it. My most difficult break up was just life shattering awfulness. It probably took me about a year to really feel ‘like me’ again. And even longer to really fully recover. Be patient with yourself. You will feel whole and complete again. After this breakup I just would’ve done ANYTHING to have found a way to make it work again. I would torture myself with “why” and I begged God, the universe, anyone to make us get back together. Well fast forward almost 5 years and I am so so so so so relieved I didn’t end up with him (he was a great guy, just not the best match – course didn’t see it at the time or years after). It took me years to see it that way (yeah a little pathetic to admit), but dang…clearly it was meant to work out this way. Well anyways I’m blabbing… the important thing to know is I’m sending support and love. Hang in there girl!
Brittany
THANK you for this!! You were NOT babbling, and comments like this give me SO much hope for the future. I appreciate this more than you know!! ❤
kelly @ racesrepsramblings
Aww happy to help in any way I can. Sometimes it’s just nice to know you’re not alone in tough experiences. Sending you happy thoughts!
Lauren @ ihadabiglunch
This is such an utterly beautiful post. You are an inspiration. I read your initial post from six months ago and it’s awesome to see how far you’ve come. I especially love the part at the end of this post where you said “I’ve learned so much about myself in the past 6 months.” That alone is great! It’s hard to put it in perspective but even with all the hurt and pain, the fact that you’ve been forced to face yourself and your identity in the mirror is a gift that many people avoid.
Brittany Trentham (@batrentham)
I’m so sorry you are going through this friend! I love real, honest, and emotional posts at times because it shows that we bloggers are human. We are real people that live real lives where it isn’t always rainbows and butterflies. I’m thinking of you, praying for you, and I’m always here for you!