1. I shared my love of cemeteries in a previous EMC post, and the love is still alive and well. I visited an abandoned cemetery recently with graves of people who were born in the 1800’s and it was unbelievably cool. I’m convinced my pal who took me here thinks I’m crazy, but I assure you there is beauty almost everywhere.
2. I had my first ever edible at the ripe old age of 32 (sorry mom and dad). It made me extremely sleepy after a few hours, but I have never been so in tune with the movement of walking in my life. I presume this is what The Buddha felt on his quest to enlightenment.
3. I recently took a trip to a town I used to adore. The town is no longer what it used to be, and while I am sad about it, I also appreciate change in every way, shape, or form. In typical Brittany fashion, I find this scenario to be like a metaphor for life. At least the lake still looks good, I spent many emotional days running around this lake.
4. Last April I started journaling regularly to help me express my emotions better, and I have now been journaling for a full year. What an amazing outlet. I don’t journal daily, but oh boy there is some intense stuff written on those pages.
5. On that note, I have become so in tune with my emotions lately, while sitting with my cat the other day I literally started crying while looking at him. I have so much love for him it sometimes physically pains me to imagine him not in my life. 94.591% of my anxiety revolves around him having another emergency.
6. I have been working reallllyy hard to live more of a “good enough” life rather than a “everything must be perfect” life. Life is TOO SHORT TO BE STRESSED OUT.
7. I busted out my hybrid bike a couple times last week and had one of the best rides I’ve had in months. I had fleeting thoughts about selling it upon my return, but I am so thankful I didn’t. While riding it I had the biggest snot rocket fail of my entire life. It was awful. And messy.
The more I learn about bikes and different quality features, the more I want to upgrade to the next level in the hybrid hierarchy, but I adore this Cannondale so much I cannot let her go just yet.
8. I go out of my way to ensure I spell someones name right when I am writing it in some form. I also find it somewhat impersonal when someone spells my name wrong. I literally have no idea why I care so much.
9. I’ve been obsessed with German music lately – German rap, German pop, German folk. I still find comfort in hearing German, and it reminds me of every time I would leave Germany to visit another country. I felt like the odd man out anywhere else that didn’t speak English, yet upon my return to Germany I always felt safe.
I have very loose plans (I’ve paid a small deposit) to visit Scotland and Germany in summer of 2022, and I cannot wait to walk around Garmisch without the stress of having to work.

10. I used to loath the idea of getting older. Being in my 30’s felt like a death sentence, when in reality I am still so incredibly young. Being in my 30’s is like being in my 20’s, but caring so much less about what everyone around me thinks. This new decade of life is like obtaining a free super power, and only those who have hit this milestone truly know what I am talking about.
Q: What’s your confession?

45 thoughts on “Early Morning Confessions”
ReidIvinsMedia
When I read the bit about being thirty a memory came rushing back.
On my 35th birthday my parents said to me: “Congratulations son, you’re halfway through” alluding to the three score years and ten.
I couldn’t stop laughing!
Brittany
HA, thanks for sharing!
PROF.SOL.
I really enjoyed reading your post! Made me feel glad and happy with myself and the personal growth projects I have given myself.
Brittany
That makes me smile!
robinpopham
Not too sure about the German Music, but journaling is certainly such a powerful tool for life.
Brittany
I’d have thought the same thing about German music had I not lived in Germany. 🤪
rootchopper
So edibles have benefits other than pain relief? You probably had a bigger dose of THC than I did. By 2024 Virginia will catch up with the rest of the civilized world and open dispensaries. I suspect NJ will beat them to it.
Glad to hear your bike is treating you well. New bikes are great but, to be honest, old ones will last forever and can be upgraded at relatively low cost. Don’t get sucked in by sales people. The best bike is the one that fits you.
Time to paint. (Make it stop!)
Brittany
The edible I had was 10mg of THC, which was more than enough to give me a slight adventure in my mind.
As for the bike, no one is sucking me into anything. I’m sucking myself in preassembling all these amazing bikes. I more so just want to try my hand at disc brakes. I do love the bike I have though…
rootchopper
Wow. 10 mg isn’t all that strong. I think the ones I took for pain were 20. Took one at bed time.
You’re assembling bikes? Good to know how. Also, everyone I know who has disc brakes loves them.
Brittany
I’m only doing pre-assembly, so putting on handlebars, wheels, pedals, etc. Still has been helpful though.
Planet Paul
I also hate it when people spell my name wrong (Sorry, that’s a joke!).
Brittany
Oh no, now I’m paranoid I spelled your name wrong somewhere, somehow…
dolthack
#3 Looks like…..Tumwater?
Brittany
Olympia! Good eye.
capejohn
I also enjoy visiting a cemetery. Many of the rural cemeteries around here have people born in the late 1600’s. I also find it ironic that so many from the 18th and 19th centuries dies at ripe old ages. 70’s and 80’s.
Brittany
Wow, 1600’s!? How cool.
Mixed Focus
Lovely post! It’s great sharing our experiences in such a lovely fashion, blogging. Hope you are well.
PS I found the edible confession quite funny!
Brittany
Thank you, I found the edible experience quite funny. 😂😂😂
Chris
My confession, I have a Ren and Stimpy sleeve tattoo in the works. No one has seen it yet but a few friends. It’s a secret till done. 🤫
You should check out the cemetery in Everett. There’s a lot of old graves there as well. And the Rucker family tomb. It’s off Broadway, downtown near the baseball field where the Aquasox play.
Brittany
Bahaha love your tattoo confession! That’s awesome. And I will add the Everett cemetery to my never ending list!
gpavants
Hi Brittney,
It’s good to hear you are doing well. Anything with Korea makes me homesick to visit. Have a great week. Gary
Brittany
Hi Gary. I’ve not been to Korea, but maybe one day!
gpavants
You’d love it. Hiker’s paradise and the people are great.
JoAnn
I try to always spell everyone’s name right as well… seems so disrespectful not to. Beautiful photos and pretty cat 🐈
Brittany
I’m glad I’m not alone in the name spelling!
Thank you. 🐾
Reehan Jameel
So important to pronounce it properly too.
Brittany
AGREED!!
Pam
Well My Dear not wanting to rain on Your parade but…….You have if blessed and fortunate lived 1\3 of Your life…..this isn’t a dress rehearsal
That being said, You have done and seen more than most people ever get a chance to do, Well Done You 👍❤️. Life isn’t easy if You live it well, it’s challenging to be that good and kind person day in and day out, in an intentional way. Intentional with Humility and Gratitude and Always in Moderation….my confession is that I’m afraid I won’t have enough time to get to that place where I’m truly happy with how I have lived my life….have I made a difference, did I leave it better than I found it, did I pack out everything I packed in (metaphor for many things) You get what I’m saying……so I’ll keep trying each day , and take some joy along the way☺️
Stirling cemetery One of my all time favorites, most any European cemetery , they really celebrated passing on…..
🙋♀️
Brittany
You have made a difference in more lives than you realize, mine included! I am thankful each and every day for your continued friendship and wisdom. I think making a difference on a small scale with those around us is just as important as making a difference on a larger scale. Thank you for all that you do!
Pam
Gracious kind words….Thank You❤️
analyticalperspective
I like cemeteries and I hope to visit Ireland/Scotland.
Brittany
I hope you do too! They are magical.
Atheria
I’m 54 now and cannot understand how this happened. I recall thinking I’d not live to be 30, which was a real possibility, actually. Life is indeed fragile and passes fast. I’ve lost great people way too young. And, we have something else in common I just learned about…a LOVE of cemeteries! I go out of my way to visit cemeteries. I used to eat my lunch next to Marilyn Monroe, Dean Martin, Natalie Wood, Eva Gabor, and Truman Capote in Westwood, CA. I’ve visited Jim Morrison’s grave in France twice. Don’t even get me started on New Orleans’ awesome cemeteries!
Brittany
Omg!! A fellow cemetery lover. I don’t know why, but they are just SO soothing to me!! 😂❤️
Atheria
As a psychic medium, I feel totally at peace in cemeteries. A funny story is that I didn’t know Dean Martin was in that Westwood cemetery. I was “called” to sit in a different area one day for lunch and plopped down on a bench not paying attention. All of a sudden, I “saw” Dean in a tux, leaning on piano, with a drink in his hand…singing “Everybody loves somebody sometime…” and then he winked at me! I’m like, “What the heck?!” I glanced to my right, and his grave (he’s in a wall crypt) was next to me and it says on it, “Everybody loves somebody”!!!
Rose East
I also didn’t try any form of cannabis until in my 30s. Coincidentally, my 30s have also been my chillest decade too. Totally unrelated 😉
Brittany
BAHA! Hell yea.
Allie Zottola
I had to go on Urban Dictionary to look up what an edible is, LOL! I can so relate to #5 with my cat. While he hasn’t had an emergency, I just love him SO much that I get emotional about him! Cats are the bomb.
Brittany
Bahaha I love you.
Continuing with M.E
I love finding old cemeteries to wander around in. There is something so calming and grounding about them for me.
Brittany
ME TOO!
Nicole @ Foodie Loves Fitness
Your bike is so pretty! I’ve been going on easy weekend bike rides with my husband and daughter (we got her a bike tagalong and it’s so cute!), and it’s such a relaxing, outdoorsy activity.
Oh edibles… I haven’t had one in too long haha Amsterdam is the best place to go sit at a cafe and eat a weed muffin from a legit bakery 🙂
Brittany
I love your biking adventures, it really is such a great way to explore.
I kick myself for not having any edible like substances when I visited Amsterdam. Granted it was a 24 hours trip, and I had already crammed so much in, but next time you had better believe I will be sitting at a cafe with a muffin. 😉
Reehan Jameel
I used to fear heading into my forties. Before I knew it I’m in my fifties. Have quit worrying.
Brittany
Excellent confirmation! ❤️